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The Minor Fall, The Major Lift....... [11 Nov 2006|05:30am]
[ mood | I'm here and living ]

"We think therefore we are a bit confused" 

Very true. 

Sooooo, the supposed truth is that guys are simple creatures. B has said this to me on numerous occasions and I know he wouldn't say it if he didn't feel it was true. 

So, I accepted that. But still don't know why I can't figure men out. Figured I just know how to pick em lol. 

Then Nick went and made everything as clear as mud. According to him, men are just as complicated as women but in different ways. (I'm not sure about what ways are different) The problem is that guys want women to think that they are simple because of this myth. Which makes them even more complicated in my mind. At least we as women will be the first to tell you we're nearly impossible to figure out.

I don't get it yet I do. I never saw how you could be so simple yet still be able to handle such complicated emotions as falling in love, for example. I know that's always complicated and I've never been in love. In lust sure (haha), but not love. 

It still doesn't help figuring out the opposite sex. It's probably something I'll never understand since everyone is so different. One phrase or look or action could mean two completely different things to two different people. 

Then again, I really really believe that artists/performers feel things deeper than others do. They have an inner passion.......more emotion. How else could they play a dramatic role without it? You tap into that to present the most real performance. 

Tortured artists are always the brilliant ones. If they weren't tortured...they wouldn't be artists. 

That could pretty much be why I am the way I am. I care too much about what others think of me but at the same time, I really don't. I'm irritated when people talk about me and things that are none of their business " Thanks for making me the center of your world, bitches". At the same time, I'm like why do they even care? Why should I care that they care? 

Why do we care so much about what other people think? I mean family.....friends.....significant others....that would make sense. They are important people in your life. You don't want them upset or disappointed in you for your choices and you know they think the same for you. But people you're just aqquaintances with, people you see but don't talk to, people who don't even know you......why do we care what they think? Why do we give them that power to stress us out or make us feel some negative feeling towards ourselves......shame, guilt, self-conscious, uncomfortable, wrong.  I know I've felt it. I'm sure others have. 

Is it just the need to be accepted by everyone? Because that will never happen. There will always be someone who doesn't like you....oftentimes for no good reason at all. 

Sadly, I guess another part of human nature is to gossip. It's terrible, but we just can't help it.  The world would be easier if we all just didn't gossip and spread rumors. Then again, it would be pretty boring too. Double edge sword I suppose. 

Gossip is interesting. But it's so toxic. Gossip (esp when it's false) can be the ultimate destructor. Gossip separates families.  Gossip ruins friendships. Gossip destroys serious relationships. Gossip can put people out of a job or a home. It's that bad and lethal when done right. 

And all it is is words. Words that are "juicy" and "the scoop or the dirt". People who have nothing better to do in life than screw up others' lives. Screw up others' lives just for some sense of instant amusement....a power surge per se. Those people are some of the worst.  If you really have a craving for all that drama, watch The OC or Grey's Anatomy. At least that way, no one gets hurt. 

I wish there was a way to block out all that negativity. It changes points of view, it distorts things. All kinds of things. Maybe then, things would stand a better chance of working out. All the previously mentioned above would be okay. I guess we'll never know. *shrugs*

I don't know what brought on this insightfulness tonight. Perhaps it's very late at night, I'm pulling an all-nighter and need something to occupy my time so it's flys by instead of dragging. Not quite sure. 

Am I crazy or actually making sense?


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AHHHHHHHH...... [19 Sep 2006|10:45pm]
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I have a LOT to catch up on.....which mean you have to wait just a little longer while I sort it all out and make sense of it all!


Just watnted to do a quick drive-by to tsay that I haven't died in a ditch or something!


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The Way We Get By...... [09 Jun 2006|11:51pm]
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Can one think entirely too much? Can one worry way too much about small random things they feel stupid for worrying about, yet can't help themselves??

If anyone can do it, it's definitely me. The fellow night owls who talk to me in the wee hours of the morning know I'm up because my brain simply cannot shut down and relax...I'm ALWAYS thinking and it stresses me out like whoa.

I am so incredibly sick of school. I want to be out there DOING it, not sitting in a classroom. It's Theatre, yes, you're learning technique, but either you have it or you don't. And core classes are not good for my ADD mind.

I want to go to Randolph Academy in Toronto so badly. I don't think I've wanted anything more in my life than to go to that school. I fell in love with it when we went there on a field trip my junior year of high school. Mr. O says it would truly be my 'element', but this place is a top notch performing arts school.....which means hard as hell to get into. But, if I do, then I'm garanteed professional work after two years going there.

Not to mention how scary it will be to go out on my own.....leave all of my friends and family behind...not only in another state, but in another COUNTRY. And I totally don't understand the currency over there. *The loony? WTF? * But, I want OUT of MI....and Randolph is where I wanna be.

Then there's Mongo. I have been there FOUR years....it really is pretty sad. But, I'm comfortable there...well, sort of anyway.

I love the people I work with...I don't think I dislike anyone there and that's saying something because we have many employees.

There are times I miss the old days....me, Canadian, and Stacy running the host stand. We used to have a freakin blast up there. "Thank you for calling BD's Mongolian BBQ, where the grill is almost as hot as Enrique Iglesias! Or where we clean our servers with Windex!" LMFAO....don't ask....only Stacy and Lauren would understand it. I miss Steve and Ryan Turpin and Rob Stone USA. Steve hired me, no questions asked. Ryan is a family friend, though I haven't heard from him lately. And Rob was just hilarious. *WWJD? World Wide Jewish Domination! lmao* I miss Chad and Don Corbin and John...Chad has got to be one of the funniest people ever.....Don was such a great guy.....and John? John is a really good friend...with REALLY gooooood backrubs.....lol And Tebo.....loooved Tebo. "She's the only sweetheart left in this place. Take care of her for me." Awww.....*sniffles* he said that to uhhhhh...actually, I think it was Pat, on his*Tebo* last day after we said our goodbyes.

But again, I love the people I work with now too. Kriztahl is my boy! :) Evie, Erin, Chrystal, Peter, Lina, Mike L., Mark, Bonnie, Sandy, etc etc etc.

Now, I get to complain. *Oh, you knew it was comin* I have been there four years....you would think that it would warrant some sort of seniority. Only not. I have seen a lot of shit go down at Mongo. But, I rarely ever complain, especially to the managers. Some people say, "Mel, you could be a manager....you've been there long enough." Don't remind me. In my mind though, I know me. Working my way up would only give me an excuse to stay in MI, which I. DO. NOT. WANT. So, I keep myself at this level for motivation. I know that sounds strange, but it's the truth.

My point is that because I don't complain, I'm the one who gets screwed. And I am not the first person to say it either. Hosts ask why I'm always the one there all day. Whatev, that doesn't really bother me unless the person who came in AFTER me gets cut before I do, making me stay all day....like what happened today. Generally, not a problem. But, I wasn't even ASKED if this was ok. They just cut her and expected me to be ok with that. Had she had something she needed to do *Like Erin going to a concert tonight* then I get it. But she stayed and ate, and was there when I left! WTF? Granted, Lina came in at 4, and got me out, and wanted to know why I was the last one there as well.

Peter will come on early for me since he knows I generally get screwed on the floor as well.

THREE YEARS serving, people!! WHY am I ALWAYS in the 10s or 20s?!?! Gimme a fuckin break already. On weekdays, the openers get to pick their sections.....but, oh, wait, when I open practically EVERY Saturday, the VOLUMES are the ones that get the good sections? Lose/lose for me, I suppose.

Even then, like I opened the other day....oh, look, the 20s.....again. *sigh* Jackie, yes, the bitch ,Jackie *she says it herself, so I don't feel bad, though I'm one of few she is really nice to* helps me out. When I'm working with her, she hooks me up with all the easy stuff for prep. Why? "You are always the one getting screwed. I see it every time you're here. And it pisses me off, so I do my part to help you out." Straight from Jackie! Ok, so if Jackie can see it and is hooking me up, then it can't be just me that thinks this.

BUT, I'm me and won't complain. The one time I did, I got the smack down for it. That's what always happens. I finally say something, and it either goes in one ear and out the other, or they get upset with me. So, I just keep my mouth shut and seeth silently.

*deep breath* I'm sorry, I had to get that out of my system.

Then we have The Woodshed. We have blown over the recent WW3 problems/drama.....for now. There will inevitably be more for Mara, Angie, Pam, and I to work out. Oh, I'm so looking forward to it. *rolls eyes*

I haven't even started learning the songs I have to sing for Jamie's wedding. There are supposed to be 6 or so, but they haven't figured out the 6th one yet. I talked them into Clay's The Way, but the others are by the Beatles, the Beegees, Elvis Presley, and Simon and Garfunkel...oh, yay, new arrangements for me to figure out.

I miss the crew from high school. Me, Alison, Sarah, Leah, Bree, Morgan, Jessie, Krystle. I still see Al and Sarah. Jessie's in Alabama, but we still talk. I have no idea what became of Morgan or Bree. I lost touch with Leah and Krys again. I would love for all of us to go out. I miss every single one of them.

Al and I were kinda tipsy the other night and were talking about Mary's wedding. The Maid of Honor thing came up and she's like that would be like you asking Mara to be your MOH instead of me, ya know? LOL I am so NOT ready for marriage...god knows I have doubts about all my high expectation dreams as is.

Don't get me wrong....I do want to fall in love someday. It's a much talked about highly recommended I'm kinda sorry I haven't felt it yet. But, I always figured, I can't go looking for love...that'll end up in heartbreak. Let love find me when the time is right. I don't know why but for some reason, I keep thinking of this quote:

" Someday Topanga's going to be a mother and I'm going to be the father. Or the uncle. Or the way I'm goin, the guy down the street with the binoculars."
-Cory Matthews, Boy Meets World

I have NO CLUE why I relate THAT to me ever being in love. Lol, perhaps, like everyone has managed to be in love once, why am I always the one on the outside looking in? This is my hopeless romantic side here.....don't think I'm gonna go force myself to be 'in love' with whatever guy I next lay eyes on. So NOT my plan. I'm just saying this in general.

I'm usually laid back in relationships. I'm pretty independent in that respect and I give the same courtesy to whoever I'm with. I know I have a life with goals and ambitions and I expect my guy would have the same. School, work, career, friends, family, hobbies, etc. These are all important and shouldn't be forced to be pushed to the side. Your lives shouldn't be each other. Because, let's face it, in this day and age, many things can happen to tear you apart...then what do you have? You gave up everything else for that one person and now they're gone. I'm usually an optimist, but I am also a realist.

I don't like to rush things, though sometimes in the heat of the moment, haha, things happen. But I never regret them. Everything happens for a reason, right? Although, I don't like being uncertain which leads me into.....

At this exact moment, I don't know where I stand in a couple peoples' minds. Yeah, a couple people, in different aspects of life and whatnot.

I'm a naturally curious person, so when I wanna know something, I go digging to find out the answer. IMDB and Google are two of my bestest online friends...lol Even if it's like a random detail of a movie that I can't remember, I will search for it until I figure it out or it will bug the hell outta me.

Same goes with where I stand with people. If you hate me, tell me! If your my friend, tell me! If you have a problem with me, tell me! If you like me, tell me! If you love me, tell me! I like to know exactly where I stand with all the people around me. If you wanna know where you stand with me, all you have to do is ask.

I suppose it's easier said than done, though. Mara's profound words to me: "Get drunk and tell him...that's what I do." Actually, that doesn't have much real relevance here, but it cracks me up. In a warped way, she's right though....I am tres nonconfrontational. I hate fighting, and getting hurt. I would much rather bottle something up, than risk hurting me or the other person. I think that's part of the 'too kind' Me my mom says I'm infamous for. I need to learn to take more chances and risks.

Ahhh, my list of things I wanna do in my lifetime. Those who have skimmed it know I have some pretty crazy things on there. I do know how insane and unattainable some are. I started that list in high school when my future seemed unlimited *Yes, a Wicked quote*. Now, I am fully aware many of these things I want will never happen. I figure aim high, right? But, is that also setting myself up for disappointment? *shrugs* I'm well aware the chances I have at being Maureen Johnson on Broadway or Toronto or the national tour is slim to nil. It's one of the most beloved and popular characters in the theatre world. The job a thousand girls would die for. But, I am still hoping I can achieve this. But, sometimes, I just feel like all I'm doing is daydreaming a hopeless cause....and that saddens me.

I suppose this entry is relatively pointless, but it was therapeutic for me. Thanks for anyone who listened/read and got this far without falling asleep....

♥ & ♣ ,

Melcrest Out! :)

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Oh My Fuckin Hawtness!!!! [25 May 2006|03:16am]
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How many of you saw American Idol tonight? OMFG!!!!!

The winner was predictable...derrr, we all knew Taylor was gonna win.


*does a happy dance*

Now, I KNEW he was gonna be on, but my jaw hit the floor when he came onstage.

Now, I knew he was growin his hair out, but my God.....could the man BE any freakin hotter?!?!?!

Those eyes.....that hair.....those cheeks....that skin......that voice....that suit....that CONFIDENCE was amazing!!!!!!

Go Clay! Go Clay!

I fell in love all over again tonight with him.....lmao

Now of course I'll share screencaps and the video *if it works* with ya! *ETA: The video won't work on here so you'll have to visit my MySpace where I put it up there!

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Oh my god.....I LOVE that man!!!


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Milk, Milk, Lemonade! [20 May 2006|12:17am]
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Where to begin???

I don't even know where to start, honestly. LOL Mraz never ceases to amaze me, that's for damn sure. The man has more talent in his pinky finger than most people do in their entire being. Just incredible.

Me and Liz got there around......6ish? And it was COOOOOOLD!!! I went back to the car to grab us hoodies/jackets it was that goosebump-inducing! lol The line was snaked around the corner already, but we were in the first half of the line for sure.

That theatre is awesome! I <3 it! It's all cute! I like the way they set it up with the floor having different levels. We stood on the second level on a stair/stoop of sorts.

The opening act was Big City Rock. An odd choice of opener for Mraz I thought, but they were good. :)

Mraz came out during one of their songs and was acting like a total goofball. ROTFL He was rocking out hardcore! I don't know what he was singing if it was the actual words, but this title Milke, Milk Lemonade! was part of it! It was hysterical and people went nuts for him when he came out! :)

Mraz started his act with just him and his guitar playing The Boy is Gone. Then, Toca came out and they did Childlike Wildlife. Then, it was rock out with full band time. Still Jason, Toca, Ian, Adam, and Eric as the band...gotta love it.

He did both new songs and older stuff. You and I Both was really cool because EVERY SINGLE PERSON in the theatre was singing along. He eventually stopped and had the audience sing the end of the song. It was really cool. I mean, as a performer, the thrill he must have gotten from hearing thousands of strangers/fans singing every word to this song he wrote back in San Diego must be truly awesome in the purest sense of the word. When the crowd has finished, he goes, "Wow, that was beautiful, guys. Thank you." Awwwww.....:)

During Unfold, the band went into a "brizzake-down" and Mraz went off freestyling! He went for a solid three minutes or so......it was amazing. Lurve it! :)

During The Remedy, which he speeds up, btw, lol, he did the first verse and chorus then goes, "In French!!" and sang the second verse in French!! Me and Liz both stopped like, Wait what?? LOL

He talked a lot between sons, towards the end, about ,how, ya know, it's his job to rock, so he wants us to turn it around and use the enthusiasm we have at the show and apply it to our jobs. He's like "Yeah, like if you're a student when you walk into class, slide in on your knees like "WHOOOOO!" Let's rock this shit!" An then you finish that test, jump up on the desk and be like, "Yeah, I'm out, stay fresh!" "Or your workin at Kinko's that 8 hour day, when you clock out, stand up on that counter and be like, "My shift's over! Peace out, bitches! Stay fresh! Be like, "I'm an employee of the Now! Don't wait till Employee of the Week or Month...be Employee of the NOW!" Hahahaha.....lmao I ♥ him. :)

Geek in the Pink was freakin AWESOME live! OMG, LOVE IT! He went full OUT on that one! He ended, with, "Geek in the Pink......My shift's over! Peace out, bitches! Stay fresh!", dropped the mic and strutted off. Hahahaha, leave it to him to make an exit. The encore was Song for a Friend which was cooooooool as well.

We went out to the busses afterwards, but Jason pulled a Houdini Act....so we didn't get to mingle with him. *siiiiiiigh* Ahh, well. And there was this Crazy Psycho Bum that wouldn't leave the fans out there alone! He got into a fight with the security gaurds! He was doing karate moves and stuff....me and Liz were like...."What....the.....fuck....????" Sooooo weird!!!

We got home around.....1amish??? I think, anyway. It was cool to hang out with Liz again....we had stuff to catch up on.....hahaha

I watched the season finale of The OC today! OMG!!!!!!!!! THEY KILLED MARISSA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Damn Volchek....he ran Ryan and Marissa off the road......I can't tell if she's truly dead or what though. I mean they showed her last breath and Ryan couldn't revive her, but why in the world would Mischa leave a hit tv show?? I mean, Adam Brody and Ashton Kutcher have proven time and again you can do both movies and tv at the same time. I don't know......now I'll have to wait till fall to see what the hell happens. *sigh*

We went out to eat @ Ruby Tuesday's and to see The DaVinci Code today as a family. Mmmmm Strawberry Margs.....yum lol.

So, we sit through all the preview crap, then the movie STOPPED and it went back to that screen of ads n stuff!!! People were PISSED and went to complain. Then, they put the movie on, but it was already like 15 minutes into it! No joke, the ENTIRE theater got up and went out to complain. So, everyone had to sit another half hour to see it at the next time, get their money back and free passes. I guess it worked out.

Now, I have to say, the movie is nowhere as good as the book. The book is very intruiging....this went way too quick for me. They didn't explain things in as much detail, which I understand. But they changed things I thought should be there. They didn't get into how intricate all the clues were, they just figured them out which bugged me. But, it was still a good movie. BUT, I highly recommend reading the book either way! Remember: The book is ALWAYS better than the movie!

Well, it's almost 1am and I have work tmm @ 11am...yessss.....I'm out of my Sat morn opening streak! Whoo! lol

So, people holla at me! I have work tmm till 430ish, Ally's ice show Sun, work Mon *but I'm opening so it's def 1st cut*.....then I have Tues, Wed and Thurs free! PLEASE don't make me have to sit here cooped up in the house all day!!!! CALL ME and we'll hang out!!!!!!!! JUST DOOOOO ITTTTT!!!!



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Oh Mah Goodness.... [26 Apr 2006|05:43pm]
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Ohhhh, the butterflies in my stomach keep having mini seizures!!!

I've been in a great mood all day.....

Having fun at work, and being care-free and happy.....

I got my Sat morn shift picked up so I get to go to the bar Friday night!

Life is good right now....:)


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Look--Pictures!! [11 Apr 2006|06:28pm]
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So, ok, here are the pics from March 25th when me and Al went to meet Ashley Parker Angel!!!

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The one where the security zoomed in all the way!
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Awww, they are adorable!
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I went to Sevin's picture gallery and this one was on page two!!
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Tiffany, Alison, Me, and Ashley Parker Angel!
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I have that photo above cropped to just me and Ashley as well, but I can't get it onto the com for some reason and it's pissing me off. Grrrr.....

That's all for now!


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Dearly Beloved.....Let's Go CRAZY!!!!!! [26 Mar 2006|08:05pm]
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Sooooo, I know it's a little later than I said I would update and I know y'all have been on the edge of your seat waiting with baited breath to have another post. *Note my sarcasm there * ;)

Ok, so where to start? I guess the begining would be nice, eh? Lol

I worked open server shift like ALWAYS on Sat morning. The day went by fairly quick....sooo, it's 3:30 and my tables are getting up. I'm thinking Yessss....finally a day I can get out on time! Well, the hosts decide to TRIPLE SEAT me! TWO 5 tops and a two top! I was like uh-uh, no way, I am SICK of people doing this to me EVERY TIME!! So, I got instantly pissed off! The night server is on in ten minutes people! Wait a damn minute! Don't fill my section up and think I'll be okie dokie, guess I'll have to stay here till around 7pm then and think I'll be fine with it! lol

So, I started the tables because I don't wanna get fired, thanks, and find Jessica, the night server in my section. Thank goodness she took over for me. Near crisis averted. :) Seems I'm pretty good with talking my way into/out of stuff. Hope I didn't just jinx myself there...knock on wood!

So, I come home and mom tells me Al called, so I cross my fingers and call her back. And she was up for going! Yay!!!

So, I ate a quick dinner, got ready, got gas, and picked Al up around 10 to 9pm. And we made our way out to Sevin the nightclub in Pontiac!

So, we're on Southfield and there's this truck a car ahead of us with like 5 mattresses in it's bed. Suddenly, the car in front of me comes to a freakin halt and I'm like 'Shit, either I get over a lane or rear end this car!' So, I get over and A MATTRESS FELL OUT OF THIS DUDE'S CAR and he didn't even stop!!!!! We fucking ran over a MATTRESS!! It was scarry! Me and Al were like 'oh shit, this is SO not a good sign!'

A little bit afterwards, this guy pulls next to us and is honking and pointing at the front of my car. We're both like 'ohhh boy what happened?'. The tire was fine, the lights are fine, what the hell is his problem, so we kept going till we got to the club. We looked at that side of the car and NOTHING was wrong so I have NO clue WTF that guy was pointing at!!

I left my cell phone in the car that was an oops but oh well.

I don't think I've explained Sevin but it's awesome!!! On the smaller side, but a perfect club for everyone...well, who likes to club anyways. :) Pounding music, light show, nice dance floor, dancers in cages, huuuge bar, good guy/girl ratio, VIP room, waterfalls, etc. Freakin great!!

But, alas, I didn't get to do the 'club' thing ,ie drink and dance. One, I had to drive home, and two Al is NOT a club dance kinda person. So, we walked around or sat on the leather couch talking.

We were watching the dance floor and as I turn around to go back to our 'waiting area' (lol) this guy pops out of NOWHERE and asks me to dance! Ahhhh! lol Had he been cute, I might have said yes, but he was a slightly creepy older guy....uhmm no. That and I couldn't abandon Al there. I quickly declined and walked at a good pace to our couch before totally cracking up!

Sooooo, Ashley didn't even show till 11:30 or so! Fashionably late I guess. We were walking back to our couch when they walked right by us! Gahhhh.....Ahsley walked RIGHT next to me and smiled as he went past! Awwwwww.......he's adorable...and I mean that. :)

So, we went out to the dance floor where they had set up a table and two chairs for him and Tiffany. Only problem, there was NO, and I mean ZERO organization to this! No, everyone get in a single file line, get in, get out like it should be. No, the crowd just well, crowds, around the table, everyone fighting for a chance to get to the front....nobody moving after they're done, so others can't get through. It was ridiculous. I think Ashley might have said something because then they moved him up a couple stairs to a little sitting area on their left. And tried to get the crowd into a line. Obviously, starstruck drunk people don't listen very well. *shakes head*

Now, it's an organized clutter. We stood there waiting for ,no joke, 45 Minutes! I was getting seriously frustrated...like REALLY. They kept letting all the staff and 'people who know the manager' in and the line was going NOWHERE! Let them meet him AFTER the crowd, dumbasses! We stood in the SAME spot the whole time!

I finally had enough and go, "Al, you now have a migraine." She's like What? but did as I said. I cut to the head of the line to talk to the security dude standing there. At first, he told me to get back in line *Pshhh right!* and I told him I needed to talk to him. I told him that my friend is getting a migraine and I need to get her home. Is there anyway we can get in and out? He asked where she was, I showed him Al. He told me to get her, so I did, and he tells us we'll be next!

Now during this time, some drunk girl asked, more like barked, to Al, "WTF does your friend think she's doing?" Al told her I was going to see what the hold-up was. Then, when I brought Al up, the girl was like, "What makes you so fucking special? How come you get to go up?". Al told her she had epilepsy (sp?) and she had to get in and go! HAHAHAHA So, we totally lied to get in right away but what the hell? It WORKED right???? LOL

We had to wait another minute or so and then we were climbing the stairs to Ashley who is just completely freaking adorable! I can't get over it! :)

My impression besides adorable? Very nice, genuine, friendly, sweet, and soft. He himself was soft and well as his touch and his voice...but that's prolly cuz of the pounding music! lol

So, we walk up there and he greeted Al first, shaking her hand and asking her name and how she's doing. She told him she was getting a little headache-y and he goes, "I know! I'm gonna wake up with a migraine tomorrow too!"

Then, he turns to me and shakes my hand and asks my name. Thing is, he can't hear much either, so he told me to get right up in his ear so he could hear! Gahhhhh.....LOL So, of course, I did, talk right to his ear *Yes, his hair is soft*

At that point, Tiffany had finished signing two pics for me and Al and goes, "HI guys! How are you??" Al, not having watched There and Back was just like hi....I on the other hand, knew and said "Hey Tiffany! Good, how are you?" She was good.

Then, we got in figuration for the picture. (Al gave her camera to the security guy up there with them) Me and Al were in the middle. Tiffany was on Al's left. ASHLEY was on my right! He's quite friendly--no qualms about getting right up next to you! lol He slid his arm around my waist *hand on hip* and pulled me in and leaned over a little bit....soo frickin cute! The guy screwed up the pic the first time (he zoomed in all the way and only got me and Al! LOL) so, we got to take another one! And Ashley 'held' me the whole time....gahhhh...Tiffany is a very lucky girl. And Tiffany is beautiful in person....she really is gorgeous. :)

After the picture was taken, Ashley signed the pics, and asked us if we wanted one. *Well, DERRRR!* Of course we each took one! He thanked us for coming out and I in turn thanked him for stopping by in Detroit! Heh. He thanked us again, and HUGGED us both! He initiated it, not us! Waay cute! *beams*

Al got some great pics of him at the table, at the lounge, and of course, the one of the four of us! I have got to get her memory card and make a cd of it so I can put the pics up here and at MySpace! Hehehe

After that, we hightailed it outta there so as to avoid the highly pissed drunk girls! hahaha Gooooooood times!

Next up, Anothy Rapp on April 17th with Ariel! EeeeeeeeeeEeeeee!!!

So, Al and I decided last night to go to lunch...we ended up at Mongo. Actually, it was quite good! lol I get sick of it quickly so, it's nice when it really is yummy.

Mistah was there...we were getting salads and he seriously almost ran into me! I averted thank god and he didn't even notice! I was like Al...and nodded my head. lol

As we're leaving, he comes RIGHT up behind me and says "Byye, Mel" and I turn cuz he kinda startled me, and he smiled... Ahhhhh, things like THAT are why I keep the delusion going! hahahaha

As we walked out, I voiced that to Al and she's like What?? I was right there and I missed it?!?! lol Yeah, go figure.....and as we're going back to the car, who comes out the back door, but Mistah! goes into the shed. A part of me was SERIOUSLY tempted to rush into that shed and jump him! But, I didn't...sad for me...teehee.

I came home and read a litte, caught up to a couple things, and watched the series finale of What I Like About You. Of course everything turned out great and they all live happiliy ever after. The show left me kinda depressed. Why can't real life be like that? You get your dream come true......your love comes back to you.....your longtime crush finally sucks it up and makes a move. *Yes that did happen in the show, not me projecting feelings here* Life would be so much easier if everything worked out. Ahhh well, no sense in trying to live a fairytale....gotta deal with reality first. *nods*

On THAT note, I'm gonna get on outta here and finish reading Without You, Anthony Rapp's book. And it's good! Definitely an inside look...damn, I would NEVER share the things he has!!


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*squee* [26 Mar 2006|01:56am]
[ mood | ready for sleep!! :) ]

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Gahhhhhhhhh.......Ashley Parker Angel is frickin ADORABLE in PERSON!!!

I just got home like 10 minutes ago.....but I am soooo tired since I've been up since 9 this morning, and it's almost 2am! And I smell like cigarette smoke, and Al and I are going out for lunch tomorrow, so after that I will update on what happened at Sevin.

Let's say this includes, mattresses, *I know WHAT?!?!* , fat guys, drunk scary girls, lying your way to the top, and meeting Ashley and Tiffany! EEP!

So, I'll be back after lunch tmm to post all about it! *Al has the pics, we got quite a few.....so I'll ty to get the memory card from her so I can make a pic post for eveyone...Al got some good shots....!! :)


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The Tribute..... [18 Mar 2006|08:22pm]
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This is my tribute to the nice girls. To the nice girls who are overlooked, who become friends and nothing more, who spend hours fixating upon their looks and their personalities and their actions because it must be they that are doing something wrong.

This is for the girls who don't give it up on the first date, who don't want to play mind games, who provide a comforting hug and a supportive audience for a story they've heard a thousand times.

This is for the girls who understand that they aren't perfect and that the guys they're interested in aren't either, for the girls who flirt and laugh and worry and obsess over the slightest glance, whisper, touch, because somehow they are able to keep alive that hope that maybe... maybe this time he'll have understood. This is an homage to the girls who laugh loud and often, who are comfortable in skirts and sweats and combat boots, who care more than they should for guys who don't deserve their attention.

This is for those girls who have been in the trenches, who have watched other girls time and time again fake up and make up and fuck up the guys in their lives without saying a word.

This is for the girls who have been there from the beginning and have heard the rite words of advice, from "there are plenty of fish in the sea," to "time heals all wounds." This is to honor those girls who know that guys are just as scared as they are, who know that they deserve better, who are seeking to find it.

This is for the girls who have never been in love, but know that it's an experience that they don't want to miss out on. For the girls who have sought a night with friends and been greeted by a night of catcalling, rude L0VESzs and explicit invitations that they'd rather not have experienced.

This is for the girls who have spent their weekends sitting on the sidelines of a beer pong tournament or a case race, or playing Florence Nightingale for a vomiting guy friend or a comatose crush, who have received a drunk phone call just before dawn from someone who doesn't care enough to invite them over but is still willing to pass out in their bed.

This is for the girls who have left sad song lyrics in their away messages, who have tried to make someone understand through a subliminally appealing profile, who have time and time again dropped their male friend hint after hint after hint only to watch him chase after the first blonde girl in a skirt.

This is for the girls who have been told that they're too good or too smart or too pretty, who have been given compliments as a way of breaking off a relationship, who have ever been told they are only wanted as a friend.

This one's for the girls who you can take home to mom, but won't because it's easier to sleep with a whore than foster a relationship; this is for the girls who have been led on by words and kisses and touches, all of which were either only true for the moment, or never real to begin with.

This is for the girls who have allowed a guy into their head and heart and bed, only to discover that he's just not ready, he's just not over her, he's just not looking to be tied down; this is for the girls who believe the excuses because it's easier to believe that it's not that they don't want you, it's that they don't want anyone.

This is for the girls who have had their hearts broken and their hopes dashed by someone too cavalier to have cared in the first place; this is for the nights spent dissecting every word and syllable and inflection in his speech, for the nights when you've returned home alone, for the nights when you've seen from across the room him leaning a little too close, or standing a little too near, or talking a little too softly for the girl he's with to be a random hookup.

This is for the girls who have endured party after party in his presence, finally having realized that it wasn't that he didn't want a relationship: it was that he didn't want you. I honor you for the night his dog died or his grandmother died or his little brother crashed his car and you held him, thinking that if you only comforted him just right, or said the right words, or rubbed his back in the right way then perhaps he'd realize what it was that he already had. This is for the night you realized that it would never happen, and the sunrise you saw the next morning after failing to sleep.

This is for the "I really like you, so let's still be friends" comment after you read more into a situation than he ever intended; this is for never realizing that when you choose friends, you seldom choose those which make you cry yourself to sleep. This is for the hugs you've received from your female friends, for the nights they've reassured you that you are beautiful and intelligent and amazing and loyal and truly worthy of a great guy; this is for the despair you all felt as you sat in the aftermath of your tears, knowing that that night the only companionship you'd have was with a pillow and your teddy bear.

This is for the girls who have been used and abused, who have endured what he was giving because at least he was giving something; this is for the stupidity of the nights we've believed that something was better than nothing, though his something was nothing we'd have ever wanted.

This is for the girls who have been satisified with too little and who have learned never to expect anything more: for the girls who don't think that they deserve more, because they've been conditioned for so long to accept the scraps thrown to them by guys.

This is what I don't understand. Men sit and question and whine that girls are only attracted to the mean guys, the guys who berate them and belittle them and don't appreciate them and don't want them; who use them for sex and think of little else than where their next conquest will be made. Men complain that they never meet nice girls, girls who are genuinely interested and compelling, who are intelligent and sweet and smart and beautiful; men despair that no good women want to share in their lives, that girls play mindgames, that girls love to keep them hanging. Yet, men, I ask you: were you to meet one of these genuinely interested, thrillingly compelling, interesting and intelligent and sweet and beautiful and smart girls, were you to give her your number and wait for her to call... and if you were to receive a call from her the next day and she, in her truthful, loyal, intelligent and straightforward nice girl fashion, were to tell you that she finds you intriguing and attractive and interesting and worth her time and perhaps material from which she could fashion a boyfriend, would you or would you not immediately call your friends to tell them of the "stalker chick" you'd met the night prior, who called you and wore her heart on her sleeve and told the truth? And would you, or would you not, refuse to make plans with her, speak with her, see her again, and once again return to the bar or club or party scene and search once more for this "nice girl" who you just cannot seem to find? Because therein lies the truth, guys: we nice girls are everywhere. But you're not looking for a nice girl. You're not looking for someone genuinely interested in your intermural basketball game, or your anatomy midterm grade, or that argument you keep having with your father; you're looking for a quick fix, a night when you can pretend to have a connection with another human being which is just as disposable as the condom you were using during it.

So don't say you're on the lookout for nice girls, guys, when you pass us up on every step you take. Sometimes we go undercover; sometimes we go in disguise: sometimes when that girl in the low cut shirt or the too tight miniskirt won't answer your catcalls, sometimes you're looking at a nice girl in whore's clothing - - we might say we like the attention, we might blush and giggle and turn back to our friends, but we're all thinking the same thing: "This isn't me. Tomorrow morning, I'll be wearing a teeshirt and flannel shorts, I'll have slept alone and I'll be making my hungover best friend breakfast. See through the disguise. See me." You never do. Why? Because you only see the exterior, you only see the slutty girl who welcomes those advances. You don't want the nice girl.. so don't say you're looking for a relationship: relationships take time and energy and intent, three things we're willing to extend - - but in return, we're looking for compassion and loyalty and trust, three things you never seem willing to express. Maybe nice guys finish last, but in the race they're running they're chasing after the whores and the sluts and the easy-targets... the nice girls are waiting at the finish line with water and towels and a congradulatory hug (and yes, if she's a nice girl and she likes you, the sweatiness probably won't matter), hoping against hope that maybe you'll realize that they're the ones that you want at the end of that silly race.

So maybe it won't last forever. Maybe some of those guys in that race will turn in their running shoes and make their way to the concession stand where we're waiting; however, until that happens, we still have each other, that silly race to watch, and all the chocolate we can eat (because what's a concession stand at a race without some chocolate?)


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Use a Mirror, Babe.... [22 Feb 2006|09:20pm]
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I found a couple quizzes to do...yaaaaay! lol

Where Do We Go From Here?

Which Buffy Musical Song Are You?
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Borderline Obsessive

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Which Character from Rent are you?
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So Yeah..... [19 Feb 2006|06:16pm]
[ mood | still bored ]

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.....I'm waiting for an important email and I have nothing to do today. So boredom has ensued. I got my birthday present from my parents early...my very own DVR...or Tivo for you technologically impaired few. YAY!!! I've been setting it to tape stuff left and right. heh. But for now I am soooooo bored so I did another survey...I would have just posted this tmm but what the hell? I have plans tmm....today's my relaxing day. OG! An Rent comes out on dvd on Tues!! I am SO there!!!


1% : what color are your eyes: My eyes are green with a little blue in them

2% : what color were they when you were born: Blue

3% : what color are your lashes: Uhmmm dark brown?

4% : do you have bigger pupils than others or smaller: Uhhhh what?

5% : have you ever counted the number of times you blink in a second: Hahahah no

6% : do you wear contacts: Yes

7% : do you wear glasses: I'm supposed to but I don't

8% : did you ever have eye surgery: No

9% : what was the last thing that poked you in the eye: uhmmmmm eye crusties

10% : can you touch your eyes without finching or does it just gross you out: No I can do it

11% : how often do you look into people's eyes when you talk: I always do...it's common courtesy

12% : what's your favorite eye color: I love light eyes...blue or green

13% : do you ever just go up to someone and look into their eyes because you want to know their eye color: HAHA no, but Josh did that to me once

14% : do you wear sunglasses often: Not since my last pair broke grrrr...

15% : what eye color do you wish you had: I'm good with the color I have

16% : can you cross your eyes: Yes

17% : do you roll your eyes constantly: Not constantly

18% : what's your favorite color: Blue or purple

19% : what's the prettiest season and why: Summer!! Everything is colorful and warm!

20% : who's the hottest or cutest person you ever saw: OMG, I have no clue....

21% : what was the last thing you read (bookwise): Uhm..The DaVinci Code

22% : who was the last person you wanted to see: Heh :)

23% : what was the last thing you watched on tv: Aladdin

24% : do you read the newspaper much: Nope

25% : do you read magazines much: Yeah

26% : do you read much in general: I try to

27% : what's the first thing you see if you look over past your computer: My room...it's a laptop

28% : did you ever see it hailing: I live in MI...what do you think??

29% : don't you hate it when you have sleep in your eyes (like the crusty crap): Eww that stuff is icky...

30% : close your eyes. (after you read the whole question, dumbie) are there lights still in your lids with the dark? You spelt dummy wrong.....and yes

31% : can you sleep with a light on: If I'm really tired yes

32% : how light is it outside: Uhmm*looks* it's almost dark out

33% : can you roll your eyes into the back of your head: Yeah but it ain't pretty


1% : do you like your ears: I never really gave my ears much thought

2% : do have them pierced: Yes

3% : how many times: Once in each ear, but I plan on double peircing...

4% : what's your favorite sound: Hmm....I like soft sounds but I don't think I have a fave sound

5% : what's the worst noise in the world: nails screeching on a board or Ashlee Simpson's voice

6% : are you listening to any music: Yes

7% : what do you hear around you: my music playing and Chris in his room

8% : what's your favorite song: At the moment?? Jesse's Girl-Rick Springfield

9% : can you wiggle your ears: No

10% : when was the last night you stuck your fingers in your ears so you couldn't hear something and why: LOL I couldn't even tell you

11% : do your ears have attached lopes or unattached: What? Uhmmmm attached?

12% : do your ears get red when your embarassed or any other emotion roars through your body: Yes

13% : what was the last thing someone said to you: Mel! Where's Raleigh?

14% : is it annoying to get that ringing noise in there: Yessss means people are talking about you....doesn't surprise me anymore really

15% : do you hear voices in your head: Thankfully, just my own

16% : what was the last thing you heard that you rather you didn't: Chris and Brittany...enough said....

17% : what was the last thing you wanted to hear, but never heard it: How about something other than 'How sweet of you' ?

18% : what was the last piece of advice you were given: You've gotta take chances...

19% : did you ever put a rubber band around your ear: Uhhh no

20% : go and open the door to outside and what's the first thing you hear: Silence


1% : do you ever stop talking: Derrr

2% : who did you talk to last: My mom

3% : what was the last thing you said: That Raleigh was upstairs

4% : did you brush your teeth today: Yes

5% : how many times to you usually: Uhmmm do I usually what?

6% : who are you talking with now: No one

7% : who do you wish you were talking to: A certain person....

8% : who was the last person to call you: Angie I think my phone has been being wiggy lately

9% : who was the last person you called: A friend

10% : who was the last person to IM you: Pat Harrison....not manager Pat, Pat from school Pat....wow, that whole two Pat H. thing is gonna drive me crazy

11% : who was the last person you IMed: Uhmmm Mara

12% : do you talk to yourself: Sadly, when I'm pissed and can't vent to someone, it calms me down

13% : do you mind: No.

14% : what was the stupidest thing you said in the past 48 hours: Hmmmmmmmm...I can't think of anything...

15% : do you sing: Of course!

16% : do you sing in the shower: Yep

17% : do you sing in public: Do I really need to answer this?

18% : do you hum or sing while walking down the halls? (applies to students): Lol not down the halls no, but when I'm at work, I'll sing along to the radio

19% : are you outspoken: No

20% : are you opinionated: Yes

21% : do you speak your mind: Sometimes

22% : how often do people tell you to shut up, jokingly or not: Lol often

23% : are you a public speaker type: Hmmmm possubly depending on the subject

24% : do you stutter: No
25% : how many languages do you speak: English, Franglais, and some French

26% : how often do you scream: Not often

27% : are you loud or quiet: Quiet

28% : does your mouth reflect your personality on the inside: Huh??

29% : who has the coolest/sweetest voice: Jason Mraz to both accounts

30% : how do you get your voice heard and ideas out: LJ or by word of mouth

31% : do you often write letters: Not often but sometimes

32% : what was the last song you sung to: Doing Under-Evanscence

33% : what's your usual greeting to a friend: Hey....or Aloha

34% : what's your usual greeting to an adult: Hi or hey

35% : what's your usually greeting on the phone: Hello? if I don't know the number and Aloha if I do

36% : what's your favorite food: Pasta

37% : what's your favorite gum: Big Red

38% : what's your favortie word: Rockin

39% : what's your favorite drink: Cherry Coke but ask me after my bday..;)

40% : is your tongue pierced: No, but an ex-bf did

41% : do you like tongue piercings: They're uhmmm different ;)

42% : how about lip piercings: Ehhhhh

43% : ever have braces, how long: No

44% : do you have a retainer, for how long: No

45% : can you curl your tongue: Yes

46% : can you whistle, on inhale or exhale: Hahahahaha I can't whistle!

47% : do you grind your teeth: No

48% : did you have your first kiss yet and with who: Yes a long time ago.....uhhhh Stephen was his name

49% : did you ever french: Yes

50% : how many people have you ever kissed, cheek or lips: Oh god cheeck too? Too many to count

51% : off the kissing subject already... did you ever have a filling: Yes

52% : if so, how many: Three to date

53% : how many cavities: Look above

54% : are you a lipgloss addict: Not really

55% : how about chapstick: YESSSS

56% : do you like the dentist: HELL NO!!!!

57% : do you have all four wisdom teeth: Yes

58% : ever have any teeth pulled: One

59% : how about a root canal: Ewww I hope I never do

60% : go to a mirror and count how many teeth you have: No thank you average would be 32 so I'll go with that

61% : did you lose all your baby teeth yet: yeah all that I will lose anyway

62% : if not, how many to go: -----

63% : what was the last thing you ate: Some pretzels

64% : current taste: Salty

65% : do you bite: Not hard lol

66% : how often do you snap at people: Hardly ever

67% : are your teeth straight: I think so

68% : can you flip you tongue over: Yep

69% : can you snap your tongue really loud: Eh?

70% : can you pop your lips: Yeah


1% : is your nose pierced: No

2% : do you like pierced noses: No

3% : current scent: Cappacino from my candle

4% : no coke sniffing, right: Ewwww

5% : what about pixi stix up the nose ever: Ick but Mark did it once and it burned! Moron!

6% : do you hold your nose to swim: No

7% : can you flare your nostrils: Yes

8% : do you have freckles on the bridge of your nose: No

9% : do you think your nose is big or small: uhmmm normal?

10% : do you pick it sometimes? (be honest): Ewwwww

11% : do you push your nose to keep your balance: What???

12% : what's the worst scent: Hot garbage

13% : what's the best scent: Buttercream frosting candle, strawberries, the guy you like

14% : what deodorent do you use: Lady Speed Stick

15% : what's your favorite cologne: Burberry Touch

16% : what's your favorite perfume: Curious or Eternity

17% : what do you use: Many different scents...I like variety

18% : does scent matter in the opposite sex (not as in they shower or not but their cologne or perfume): Nope

19% : do you blow your nose in public: I try not to

20% : look around. find a random thing and and smell it. describe it's scent. and then say what it was: Sweet, kind of sour, fruity......Grren Apple chapstick


1% : what does you keyboard feel like: Like a keyboard

2% : what's the best feeling in the world (emotionally): Pure happiness

3% : what's the best feeling in the world (physically): When your body is totally relaxed

4% : what's the worst feeling in the world (emotionally): To feel like no one out there cares about you

5% : what's the worst feeling in the world (physically): Extreme cold

6% : what do your feet feel like at the moment: Kinda bored

7% : what do you hands feel like at the moment:A little dry...perhaps I need some lotion

8% : what does your head feel like at the moment: Honestly, it's starting to hurt a little

9% : what does your bladder feel like, especially after this: Uhm fine?

10% : what do your legs feel like at the moment: My foot is asleep

11% : what do your shoulders and arms feel like at the moment: My shoulders are all achy..where's John when I need him??

12% : what does your butt feel like at the moment: comfy

13% : what does your neck feel like at the moment: Crickety

14% : are you cold: No

15% : are you comfortable: For the most part

16% : where are you: On my futon in my room

17% : who was the last person you hugged: Kevin Raeburn

18% : who was the last person that pushed you: Jah of course

19% : who was the last person that you pushed: Again...Jah lol

20% : when was the last time you fell over: Uhmmmmm I don't remember

21% : does music calm you and your nerves: Yessssss

22% : if not, then what makes you chill: Venting is always nice...or going for a looong walk or drive

23% : what stresses you out: Drama with people, uncertainty, school, casting days, etc.

24% : when was the last time you touched a doorknob: Uhm, to get into my room

25% : do you crack your knuckles: Yes and it drives people nuts

26% : what's your current emotion: Bored

27% : ever think you were in love: Nope

28% : how many times have you fallen for the opposite sex: Fallen like in love? Never, I don't think.

29% : what's the worst season (in feeling wise of course): I don't really know.....
30% : how do you feel now, after that long survey: Still bored unfortunately


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Yet Another.... [19 Feb 2006|02:27pm]
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....survey. I don't really have much to update on in life....nothing of great interest for the general public at least. Guys are completely clueless, but I've known that for a while. I practically spelt it out for him and I still don't think he really understands. Those who know the whole story, know what I'm talking about. Those who don't....well, I guess you just aren't that important, are ya? ;) In the meantime, here's another survey:

Guilty or Not Guilty Survey:
Feel free to elaborate a little...

Singing in the shower? Totally guilty

Left the stove on? Not guilty

Ate Stale food? Not guilty

Spit in someone's Drink? NOT guilty, but I know someone who's done that...

Stole Something from a friend? Not Guilty

Bossed your friends around? Not Guilty yet Guilty.....I have to 'take charge' at work when I'm at the host stand.

Played with Barbies? Guilty....hey, I was a little girl once!

Left Love Bites on your past or present BF/GF? HAHA no, but they have left them on me....

Sang the wrong words to your favorite song? LOL Guilty

Lit candles & let wax run all down your desk? Not Guilty

Made a Sex tape? SO NOT guilty

Kissed your posters of your favorite stars? Not Guilty

Played Air guitar? Guilty

Listened to stupid music and said you like it? Lol, if I like it it can't be that stupid.....but Guilty nonetheless

Had sex with a stranger? Not Guilty

Did a Wrestling move on someone? Not Guilty

Had a Lite Brite toy? Guilty

Threw a surprise party for someone or yourself? Not Guilty

Made someone cry? Uhmmmmmm, if I did, I don't know about it

Had the balls to ask someone out? Guilty

Opened your Xmas presents early? Guilty

Ever been caught doing something "dirty"? Not Guilty

Did the time-warp? GUILTY!!!!!!!

Found money, and didn't turn it in? Not guilty

Gave money to a homeless person? Guilty

Sang cheesy 80's songs? Guilty...like right now!

Dug for buried treasure? Not Guilty

Thought Star Wars was cool? Not Guilty

Pretended to be a South Park cartoon? Not Guilty

Had a super-hero costume? Not Guilty

Still sleep with your baby blanket? Not guilty

Told a family member to Fuck off? Guilty

Lied to protect a friend? Guilty

Broke a bone? Not guilty

Got lost in your own little world? Guilty

Seen "the goonies" more than 10 times? Guilty

Played a Video game for more than 5 hours? Not guilty

Watched "Scream" and actually Screamed? Not guilty

Dyed your hair a color from the rainbow? Guilty

Hugged your mom in the past 24 hours? Not guilty

Drank until you passed out? Not guilty

Fought over a girl/boy? Guilty


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It's Tiiiiime..... [15 Feb 2006|02:25am]
[ mood | conflicted ]

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.....for another survey! I'm vored...really bored......Valentine's Day is sooo boring when you don't actually Have a Valentine......:/


Do you wear black eyeliner?: Sometimes, if it fits the outfit du jour

How much black clothing do you own?: Hmmmmm, a fair amount of black

Do you think about death often?: Noooooo

Do you want to die?: Ew, what kind of question is that?

Are you a social outcast?: nope

Are you pale?: Oy almost tranluescent

Do you cut?: ewwwwwww no!

Do you like Hot Topic?: Actually, I kind of like Hot Topic

--Skater Punk--

Can you skateboard?: HAHA, that's a laugh!

How often do you go into Pac Sun?: More frequently recently lol

What's your sneaker brand?: lol I'm not loyal to one brand....I'm a shoe whore, I'll admit it!

Do you do stupid stuff with your friends?: Hahahaha, I've had my moments

Are the long skater cuts hott?: Say who what now??

How much do you get in trouble?: Not too often and not for really bad things :)

Do you listen to the bands who are considered
"posers"?: Uhmmmmm...define 'poser'

How many piercings do you have?: Two and a scar from my third


How often do you say the word "like"?: lol probably more than I should but not up to Cher and Dionne standards

Do you shop at Abercrombie and Fitch?: No

Are the A&F models hott?: Ehhh they're dime a dozen models..what fun is that?

How many purses do you own?: Uhhhhhhh.........at least 8 or so?

Is lipgloss a must?: Not always, but chapstick?? Can't live without it!

How often do you wear makeup?: I try to everyday unless I'm feeling particularly lazy

Ever had a manicure?: Yes, I want another!

Rock music is bad, right?: NO!

Are you ever ditzy?: I have my moments, but I would never say I am a ditz

Do you own high heels?: Yes

Have you ever said "Oh my gosh"?: LOL yeah!

Are you a cheerleader?: I was freshmen year of high school then quit because the girls were bitchy


Is your hair long?: No

Are you a vegetarian?: Uhmmm sort of no red meat for me!

Do you own a tye dye shirt?: Mmmmm no

Do you want peace?: Of course

Do you want to save the animals?: Again, of course

What do you think about the war?: AGAINST IT!

Have you ever made a peace sign with your two
fingers?: Lol , who hasn't??


Are you from the ghetto?: HAHAHAHAHA

Do you own "bling bling"?: Haaaaa nooooo

What do you think about do-rags?: They crack me up!

Do you like rap?: ehhhh some of it

How about hip-hop?: Is there really difference??

Was Tupac truly the greatest rapper in the world?: He must be if he's still making records in the afterlife...

What do you think about afros?: They look ridiculous

Have you ever said 'fo shizzle'?: Fo shizzle, my nizzile all the time-izzle! Oy!

How about 'oh, snap son'?: LOL nope


Is life a party?: I wouldn't say that no

How often do you get drunk?: Slim to seldom

What's the point of getting drunk anyway?: Hell if I know

Do you care about your grades?: Yes

Do you need attitude adjustment?: No

How far have you been?: Are we talking sex here? I think everyone already knows That one.....


How often do you cry?: I don't have a schedule for that, dude...

Do you have an ex?: Well, derrrr.....

Do you have an acoustic guitar?: No

Are you emotional?: Yes, and I blame it on my zodiac sign!

Do you like soft music?: Yes, when the mood strikes me

Do people understand you?: Mmmmmm not as well as they think they do

Do you write your own songs?: Nope, I suck at song writing

Is your hair dyed dark?: Yes actually but not black dark


Do you play any sports?: Hahahahaha, yeah right...

How important are they to you?: NOT

How important is your reputation?: Ya know, I used to think it was really really important. Then, I decided hell with it and did some stupid things I actually regret and I HATE regretting things. So, yes a rep is important because it can keep you in line.

Do you pick on the geeky kids?: Never!

What do you think about football?: Ooooooo....I think I went over this around SuperBowl Time!

Are you considered a bully by anyone?: Nope


Do you wear glasses?: No, but I do wear contacts

Do you get good grades?: I try...

Are you smart?: Smart in what way??

Do you use an inhaler?: No

Do you stick pens and calculators into your shirt?: LOL no

pockets?: Again no

Does your mom buy your clothes?: Ewww no!

How often are you on the computer?: Sadly, quite often

Do you get picked on?: In middle school, tons, but that stopped in high school.


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Hallmark Holiday [13 Feb 2006|09:40pm]
[ mood | nervous ]

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Happy Valentine's Day everyone!!!

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Ya Know the Short One...... [10 Feb 2006|11:42pm]
[ mood | relaxed ]

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....that sounds like a sneeze? A haiku? lol

Well, I had to write a few haikus for my Creative Writing class, o I though I would share them with you.

In the grand bouquet
Dotted tiny red rosebuds
Among the lillies

She's flying solo
Spreading open her new wings
Fly away from home

Sweet red strawberries
Sparkling champagne in ice
Perfect night for two

Pale porcelain face
Shell pink lips and aqua eyes
Thrown in the corner

A black velvet sky
Diamonds twinkling within
The galaxy's eyes

Sooooo, are those any good????? Whatcha think??


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A Song..... [07 Feb 2006|06:38pm]
[ mood | ready to watch movies!!! ]

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Long Time Coming-Oliver James

Everybody wants to be loved
every once in a while
we all need someone to hold on to
just like a helpless child
can you whisper in my ear
let me know it's alright
it's been a long time coming
down this road
and now i know
what i've been waiting for
and like a lonley highway
i'm trying to get home
ooo loves been a long time coming
you can look for a lifetime
you can love for a day
you can think you got everything but
everything is nothing when you throw it away
then you look in my eyes
and i have it all
once again
it's been a long time coming
down this road
and now i know
what i've been waiting for
just like a lonley highway
i'm trying to get home
ooo loves been a long time coming
didn't know i was lost
til you found me
uh huh
didn't know i was blind
but now i see
can you whisper in my ear
let me know it's alright
it's been a long time coming
down this road
and now i know
what i've been searching for
oh been a long long highway and
now i see
ooo loves been a long time
ooo been a long time
loves been a long time coming


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Barbarians Fight [02 Feb 2006|11:00pm]
[ mood | cynical ]

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Is anyone else as sick of all the SuperBowl hoopla as I am??? It's EVERYWHERE! All I hear about. I. Do. Not. Care. I already think football is a totally ridiculous sport. Oh yeah, men's men. Grrrrr.....they were tight clothes and tackle each other. Fighting over a ball like a bunch of wild dogs. How sexy. What a turn-on. *rolls eyes*

Celebs are out in full force as well. Like Whoa. Jimmy Kimmel is here. I wanna go see Jimmy Kimmel. A late night host I like is here, but from the sounds of it, there's been ticket mishaps and whatnot. Hmmmmm......

SmashMouth was here. Been there, seen them. Nothing to scream about. Pepsi Smash did a concert and the Goo Goo Dolls were here. Damnit, that's twice I've missed them when they were in town. Oy......

So, I researched some stuff today on my breaks and boy, oh, boy do I have some ideas for next month. :) Should be a blast. ;)

Clay Aiken is such a tease......he's having waaaay too much fun with his blog lately LOL!

Can we say VIP, people???


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Time to State it here: [24 Jan 2006|01:46pm]
[ mood | amused ]

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I am not going to explain this entry to anyone. Those who know will understand. Those who don't.....your loss.

UNCONDITIONAL. *Always and Forever*


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Oh Yeah, Uh Huh [18 Jan 2006|12:55am]
[ mood | kinda tired ]

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I'm Clay Aiken!

You're Clay Aiken, the classic kind-hearted runner-up of the series' second season!

Which former American Idol finalist are you?

Take Other Caffeine Nebula Quizzes

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